Dearest Onegin,
I write to you. It’s all I can do. And now I know it’s in your power to punish my presuming heart. Yet if you have one drop of pity, you’ll not abandon me to my unhappy fate. I am in love with you and I must tell you this or my heart, my heart which belongs to you will surely break. I would have never revealed my shame to you, if just once a week I might see you, exchange a word or two, and then think day and night of one thing alone till our next meeting. But you are unsocial they say that the country bore you. Is it true? Does the country bore you? Sometimes I wonder that you ever visited us. Why? I never know you or know this agony and fever. I know that all my life’s been leading me to this union with you. I recognize you at first sight and knew with certainty and say to myself: “it’s him, he’s come.” Help me. Resolve my doubts. Perhaps this is all nonsens…

課下再次回味電影《Onegin》，以更敏銳地眼光盯著屏幕，人物的表情，語調(diào)。聽著結(jié)尾優(yōu)雅而輕快的俄羅斯舞曲，心情亦難以伴隨著曲調(diào)平復(fù)下來，不知不覺地留下一連串的無奈。在那個時代下，無論你奮力掙扎或是處置泰然，似乎悲劇都是難以逃避的。
影片中出現(xiàn)兩個“拒絕”的場景，當中既有相似之處，亦有區(qū)別，但是結(jié)局都不如觀者美好的意愿。
第一次“拒絕”是奧涅金拒絕塔吉雅娜。
少女時代的塔吉雅娜有著一顆純凈、正直、敏感的心。她不同于一般貴族少女，她的非一般表現(xiàn)在通過閱讀的熏陶使自己在這丑陋的制度下內(nèi)心埋藏著一股忿憎的暗流，但礙于閱歷和年齡的關(guān)系，很多想法都很不成熟。她支持奧涅金把農(nóng)田出租給農(nóng)民的做法，愛好把自己一個隱藏在湖中的蘆葦，享受午后的陽光。在他人甚至母親眼中思維怪異的人，在奧涅金眼中呢？毫無疑問，奧涅金對塔吉雅娜有幾分好感，她不同于一般愚昧庸俗的鄉(xiāng)下人，亦區(qū)別于市儈世俗的城市人，可以說在某些方面，他倆是同一類人。但為什么奧涅金要拒絕這隨手可得的純潔的愛情呢？我想原因是多方面的。
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《奧涅金》Onegin!Onegin!!
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